It’s Tuesday and I’m back with the feeling of meh. I tried y’all. I tried with the positive mindset and waking up on the right side of the bed. I meditated right before I fell asleep last night, but it’s just not a good day today. The thing that’s getting me through though, is accepting that that’s okay. It’s okay to not be okay and it’s okay to have a bad day. As long as the negativity doesn’t linger unnecessarily, I think having an off moment or two is healthy. I’m no professional and I’m still working on trying to get in with one, but I think it’s human to be sad or down or upset. You can’t be happy 24/7, no matter what Instagram shows.
I was looking forward to this week being a great one after having such a good weekend. I really wanted to leave the smile on my face and mean it, but it’s just not happening today. There are some things going on in my personal life that are still unresolved and then there’s the whole trying to ‘make it’ as a writer thing that’s happening.
As I was meditating last night, I could feel the tension in my shoulders and in my neck. I tried to relax my body and focus on my breathing, but the tightness in my body was unwavering. My focus kept going to the pain and then my mind would wander off to the things that were causing me so much stress. All of that, when I was meditating to free myself from the stress. I am definitely no meditation expert and I know learning how to do it properly takes time. So, I’ll get there eventually. It’s a practice I’ll have to keep doing and hopefully will see results soon.
After meditating, I should have just put my phone away and not looked at it. I had already set my alarms for the next morning; there was no need to look at any notifications. However, I did. I looked. I had gotten an email from an agent I had queried and it was a rejection. Now, I’ve gotten many of these before, so it wasn’t the end of the world, but after trying to de-stress before going to sleep, I probably could have gone without seeing that email and waited until this morning to open it.
We’ll get more into the agenting process in tomorrow’s post. (I’m pretty sure I just made up that word: ‘agenting’).
Anyhow, all of this to say: if you’re having a bad day, it’s okay. Keep the positive thoughts coming and hope soon they’ll outweigh the negative ones. And if they don’t do that until tomorrow, know that I’m here with you. We got this!
Do you meditate? Know any tips or tricks on how to clear your mind while doing so? Do you use an app? If so, what is it? Drop all your answers in the comments below!